A Shift in Decision-Making
I am unable to pinpoint the exact moment it happened, but I am definitely more aware of it now. At some point in my life there was a shift in which I started to care less about what other people think of my decisions and how I live my life. At the ripe age of 44, it is more evident to me. Sure, harsh words can sting. Yes, approval can be great. But I have learned to really check in with me, ask myself questions, and feel how the answers sit within my body.
How do I really feel?
Am I more excited than nervous?
Am I seeing more pros than cons?
Does a big smile cross my face? Then we’re good to go!
It’s interesting how many people will try to dissuade you from doing the very things they are too scared to do for themselves. It is obnoxious at times how many people have opinions about how you should live your life. I wonder why they feel they have an obligatory seat at your table for decision-making. I am in control here and right now. The only person sitting at that table is me. So I do not need a round table discussion on my life choices. I just need to consult with myself and listen.
The more big life decisions I make has a direct correlation to how empowered and emboldened I feel. I feel like there is this little high that comes with each one. I am proving to myself that there truly is so much I can do if I am willing to step outside the box the world wants to keep me in, and the comfort zone that I had once been accustomed to. The only security blanket to keep wrapped around myself is a combination of belief, woven with love and trust. This is what will continue to allow me to step outside my comfort zone over and over again.
At times I may feel unsettled and a bit restless. There are moments where I am feeling unhappy and stewing in a pot of loneliness. I allow these to keep moving me forward as they are temporary and can hold one back if you allow them to have a tight hold on you. They can literally choke the life out of you. Instead, I work through them and look at what else I would like to add into my life, what can I change.
I love the adventures I create for myself. I appreciate that I am curious and allow that curiosity to propel me into exploration and shaking things up a bit. What may look unsettled to the outside world is starting to feel more like home within my heart and soul. I may not know where physical home is for me, but I know where my heart and soul home is. That is my wanderlust heart and gypsy soul. That is my insatiable curiosity to explore. Once you know what that is for you internally and you tap into that often and nurture it, you will start to feel more at home with who you are and allow yourself to be bolder with your own decision-making.
LYF 💖
REFLECTION: What are you currently holding yourself back from doing because of external opinions, that makes you feel excited when you think about it?